If you are happy and you know, you clap your hand!!

I'm so so happy today. Why?Why?why?

No reason, I'm simply just feeling happy. Ermm... but why am i so happy? Probably it’s that I came out from a shopping mall empty handed, after spending like 3 hrs in the mall. What an achievement!!! This is truly unbelievable! I, SHARON FONG didn't buy anything for herself nor for her hubby or for Aidan!!

Ever since the day I've found out that i was pregnant and it’s a boy, there was never a day that i would go back home without anything for Aidan. (Well even before i was pregnant, i was a shopaholic too but it just got worse when i found out that i need to get things ready for Aidan. Tsk...Tsk... Excuses!)I always have a good and valid excuse for spending money. E.g.: "This is very cheap" or "It’s good for Aidan" or "Aidan have already out grown his shirt or pants" or "He need new toys". Whatever it is, there's always an excuse for everything, just so as long as I can shop.

How can one avoid not buying anything, as the minute you walk out from your home, at every corner of your everyday route regardless from where or to where, we will all come across these few evil words plastered around, “SALE" or "Warehouse SALE" or "Factory SALE" or " End of Season Clearance”. After seeing all these posters and banners, we give it in, we start browsing and we found the item that we like, we love, one of the kinds, has great discount on it and the basket piled up. Temptation grows. Some time passes by and suddenly a question will pops up in our head, What if I don’t have enough cash to pay for it? Then you start thinking that you might not come across this item again. Normally, this is when the devil in you appears and whisper at your ear, “Use the credit card, use the credit card, you won’t lose anything, you can pay it back before the month is up”. Ha!Ha! What a joke! Most of the time what will happened is that the temptations will keep on knocking and you’ll keep on autographing at the retail outlet till you found self control or the very least till the bank statements found you. How can one overcome this problem or issue of over spending and buying unnecessarily? What’s not helping is also the fact that if you already own a credit card, your next application for your 2nd or 3rd credit card will be much easier than the first application. In the end more debts… Sigh.

I too need to address this issue of overspending and buying unnecessarily. As i need to save more money, now that I've Aidan. I’ve his future to think of. I can't be selfish anymore and just think of myself. Guess...that's why am so happy and proud of myself of what happened today!! What happened today was just a fluke! And i hope that this fluke will keep on repeating. Maybe it’s a fluke or maybe it’s simply because I’m finally awake? Shame on you Sharon, that you will need a 4mnths old boy to wake you up.I’ve tried lots of ways before but it just didn't worked. I’ve tried every ways or ideas that have been poured on me. I guess others can tell me a million thing or ways to overcome it but what i need most would be SELF DISCIPLINE or SELF CONTROL!! Where can one learn self discipline? Aarggh!!!

In conclusion, I will need to constantly improve and change myself for Aidan’s sake. Consider it an upgrade version of me, I would never have thought of changing or improving myself for anyone before… And i hope that this changes in me is not a temporarily thing.