My reasons

Heylo heylo all... This is my first attempt at blogging although I've wanted to do so ever since the blogging craze hits M'sia years ago. Why didn't i blog then? Cause i'm insecure. Towards? Well my english of cause, my grammar is bad... I don't wanna make a fool of myself.

So why the change?

I woke up from the wrong side of the bed today and i've decided that i need an improved model or version of the new me, the new mummy in me. If i don't pluck up the courage to improve myself, how else am i gonna tell my son that we need to constantly improve ourselves, not to be static and to play it safe and it's okay to changed. Hopefully this is gonna be the first of the many steps i'm gonna take towards self improvement.

What am i gonna blog about here? No i-deer... Will see where all these takes me to.

First of all I'm a mummy to a 4mnths old boy name Aidan. He's my first born, arrived into our chaotic home on the 25th December 2008, on Christmas Day. I've worked very hard for my Christmas gift. It's the gift of a lifetime from my hubby.

Aidan has changed my life in many aspects; i would never have expected myself to have so much love for a baby, toddler or kid before. I really have no patience at all when it comes to dealing with kids. But ever since i've Aidan i've changed, I've started paying lots of attention to baby, toddler or kids even if there not mine or a total strangers bundle of joy.

I miss my boy...

Which mother out there would not say that they misses they bundle or bundles of joy? The hardest part is going back to work after the 2mnths confinement....
By joining back the workforce meaning i would have to be separated from Aidan, due to the nature of my job. I'm a flying mother, i'm the flying tea coffee mummy... Worse of all I’m base at KL while my in laws and my parents are all over the east side. So hence Aidan would have to reside there as well…

Cruel? M I a lousy mum? Or why can’t I employ a maid to look after him, while my husband is at work?

Reasons; my husband’s work brings him away from home every now and then too, and it’s always last minute notice. Leaving him with the maid, will gives us more stress than having him over at the east side with our parents.
I won’t wanna add issues to my existing issue of missing him every hour of the days that we are apart.

I’ve plans; I’ll make sure that my son will not grow up without me by his side for more than 2 weeks. So far I’ve been on track with my plan, even though it is very tiring but it is worth the rush and the lack of rest or sleeps. It’s only the 2nd month, will see how it progress…